breaking back to shore

how do you lament dead plans? when all you wanted to happen were lost in a shifting supernova, you don’t know where your sails are leading you anymore.

for many who have been and are still aimlessly drifting in the galaxy, there is no mourning dead plans. there is no feeling frustrated after you have shunned social and material advancement for the pursuit of things larger than your small fugutive joys.

this is the merit of not having plans: not having to worry about plans; and their destruction thereof. so i somehow understand how many individuals just flex themselves into circumstances, skimming forth and free-falling back according to the ebb and tide of things they have no control of. that’s a life on joint, whistling don’t worry be happy against backdrops of sea and sand, not knowing where to go, but not caring any less.

so for a brief moment early today, i thought perhaps i souldn’t stick to plans anymore. if that meant no drifter could change my path, since i have no path to begin with. but i caught my ankle as i began to float in zero gravity, pulled me back down to the ground and considered. i considered for a while.

some of us just couldn’t catch a break. but stop whining, them’s the breaks. things will inevitably happen to alter your journey, but that’s the mark of authentic life. if things keep happening to keep you from doing what you wanted to do, then perhaps it’s time for a re-assessment. so many books have been written and even more movies made about chasing your dream no matter what, we forget that we take our steps with much circumspect. in the real world, many people are lost in delusion.

as for me, it’s time to re-route. it’s sad, but that’s how i know i stand on tectonic plates. which i would rather have than stagnation.

so how do you lament dead plans? you burn them into ashes and cast them to the wind. maybe some drifter will catch them along a current and find better use for them.


2 Responses to “breaking back to shore”

  1. 1 shan April 14, 2009 at 3:38 am

    Perhaps I’d catch ’em and have ’em help me in mending whatever’s in me that’s broken and hushed up.

    I just love how you ended this piece.

  2. 2 dodo dayao April 14, 2009 at 10:19 am

    Lennon once said “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans”

    I agree but that’s easier said than done, of course. And in those moments when I find myself casting my fate to the winds, it’s usually by force of circumstance, not by tapping some kind of inner courage. But I’d like to think I’m getting there.

    What to do with dead plans? Dispose of the corpse. 🙂

    And I second. That last sentence was beautiful.

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