The Cat with the Fiddle


book fetish
March 26, 2009, 9:35 am
Filed under: literature | Tags: ,

i have a love affair with books not as obsessive as intellectuals and literary mavens, but i do have an above-average appetite for written works.

but i’m experiencing some drought in the reading front for a while now, the last books i bought have perched on the bookshelf for almost a year.

going into bestsellers in galleria, though, breathed new life into my deflated spirit. and it helped that there was a sale too.

i found many of the books that i’ve always wanted to read. hardbound, brand new, and each of them damaging 100.00, 150.00 or 200.00 only. now how fortunate is that?

i bought all these books (did i mention hardbound and brand new?) for only around php700.00:

lighthousekeeping by jeanette winterson

lighthousekeeping by jeanette winterson

the ministry of special cases by nathan englander

the ministry of special cases by nathan englander

lion's honey: the myth of samson by david grossman

lion's honey: the myth of samson by david grossman

varjak pay by sf said, illustrated by dave mckean

varjak pay by sf said, illustrated by dave mckean

i also found a harbound copy of the remedy by michelle lovric (which i somehow rhapsodized in a previous entry). i’m thinking of getting it for the sake of collecting. what do you think?


how to pronounce the name siobhan
March 25, 2009, 7:16 am
Filed under: culture, family, life, lifestyle | Tags: , ,

that’s shuh-VAWN’. correctly spelt siobhan.

in a previous entry, i wrote about the considerations i had to take as i was selecting a name for my then ungendered baby. i wanted siobhan so bad for a girl, but i had some pronunciation issues. since we live in a country of michelles, nicoles and beatrices, and hardly anything more complicated than lindsay and joan, i had to look at how a relatively unusual name was going to impact my daughter as she begins to introduce herself to other people.

i once had a classmate named mavis. that isn’t even a very complex name to begin with, yet schoolteachers who meet her for the first time keep asking how her name is pronounced and/or spelt. so fast forward to adulthood, and imagine how she carries on with call center agents and helpdesk representatives.

as for me, i have a very simple name, but thanks to other pinoys who prefer to vitalize their names (like jun who prefers jhun, or joy who prefers jhoie), many starbucks baristas and ticket agents affix an unnecessary h to my name. this is how i memorized the nato phonetic alphabet: talking to agents and baristas saying things like ”my father’s name is ari. alpha romeo india.” lest they make him ahri or something close to that.

long story short: no matter how i like siobhan for my first child’s name, it simply wouldn’t do her well in our culture. so i went with robyn. i have always liked that name (as far as grade school), and the worst that could happen is having it misspelt robin. or rhobin in the world i live in.

that’s robyn. romeo oscar bravo yankee november. robyn.



via crusis and much more (from my old neglected blog too)
March 19, 2009, 2:09 am
Filed under: life, moronic escapes | Tags: ,

all of a sudden, i find myself dredging all these deep-seated memories as if i’m moving on to the afterlife. i realized i maintained my old blog for about two years, and this one here is almost two years old itself. i hope i don’t get too bored now.

the homestead has been a venue for holy week discussions these past few days, and we all know that that season is better known for its vacation value than its religious significance. i can’t wait to fly my ex-pat to the province to witness the procession. our family has been the sponsor of the scourging at the pillar image for decades now (i believe my earliest memory of provincial life involves romans with thorny branches for whips), laboring over flowers and crepe paper ribbons on that g.i. caroza, sculpted in ways to make it look as if there are filigree designs along its faces. but more days are spent just scattering ourselves along the stretch of white sand beaches, or walking down that unfinished bridge that meant to connect our town to the next island.

2005 holy week though was  a little less than memorable, so i was quite glad to see i committed the droll events to cyberspace. at least now i remember how alone i was.

via cruzis and much more

there is no week more puzzling than holy week. people of polar opposites make for their own pains and pleasures in colliding worlds. the joyful holies of last year’s advent make up for their excesses, the overstimulation of gustatory senses last christmas by starving themselves for lent. the family-disoriented teenagers who embarrassed their parents (and vice-versa) over noche buena let loose their heathen beasts and indulge in dionysiac frenzies in overcrowded beaches. as for me, i fitted myself in dimly-lit cafe corners and smoky sports restaurants, laptop in tote and notebook on hand to create excel-based files of training monitoring sheets and license tracking records. i have booked five lunch/dinner meetings with candidate leaders for next week and i did the honors of conducting the preliminary interviews and backgroud checks.

i visited my brother’s girlfriend in the hospital. i brought fruits – she has massive internal head injury and wasn’t her usual self until a couple of days ago. i have finally met someone with extensive amnesia after years of ridiculing telenovelas whose heroines inevitably lose their memories after a little bump in the head. her memories are coming back piece by piece after weeks in intensive care – anyway, i went over the mile-long printer feed SOA of medical bills which amounted to well over a hundred thousand already (but the treatments are still far from over), and oriented her folks on how to facilitate a hospital and accident claim on her insurance which she fortunately purchased just last december. she’s covered by the company i worked for not more than three weeks ago; at least at that rate, i could extend assistance on administering policyowner service.

i have purchased vitamins and medicines for our three adopted stray cats who all seem to be stricken with a virus that makes their eyes water and their mouths froth. and i kept bills for the dogs. i have scheduled two of the cats for neutering. our home service vet has procured diagnostic results of their blood samples. i adopted another cat, some sort of mangy half-breed siamese (replete with the tabby points and blue eyes), i bet some bastard of a full-breed propagating his species among strays, but it ran away. i think he walked back to crossroads where i lifted him off the ground. our vet said cats walk “back home” within a 5-km radius. crossroads is less than 5 km away from our house.

i watched 6 dvd movies plus britney’s las vegas concert in the last two late nights and early mornings. today, i have been to an accessories manufacturer with designs in mind for a pair of chandelier earrings i plan to don for a wedding in about three weeks. as soon as i log out, i’m heading to the dress shop to have a dress made for the same wedding, something i designed this morning.

i have to do something about all this spare time.



a swig of authentic life (from my old neglegted blog)
March 11, 2009, 9:12 am
Filed under: life, relating | Tags: ,

i hardly even recall my other alter ego, that ghost from the past called sic ‘em, saint!. and funny thing this marriage. it makes me recall how bad i was at relationships back when i was young and clueless. now that i am old and (still) clueless, i have learned to let reason prevail. that’s why we signed on that document: to let practical economics take its course in conjugal living. right, chief?

i still carry proof of my bad (or imaginary) relationship skills, though. through some entries in my own old neglegted blog,  i’m too ashamed to even read myself.

a swig of authentic life (may 2004)

four days and counting since we terminated whatever little was left of our relationship. there were no eyes brimming with tears nor breath held in anxiety to accompany the momentous minute we decided to quit. it wasn’t poetic. i was sitting on a makeshift cushion on the raised portion by the ramp going to our company’s bank affiliate. there was lucky strike in between my fingers and i counted three more joints before wish stick. it was a cross-breed between argument, lecture and curse. all in all a decent conversation. i might have sounded defensive, but i was generally within bounds of reason, i suppose. clients glanced, but didn’t stare. agency leaders hurled the usual insipid jokes at staff who sit alone away from worktables. the security guard found nothing out of the ordinary. i was always there anyway.

this morning i didn’t report for work. the sadness was beginning to seep into me. funny it took four days. i woke up with a start, surfacing from a dream that a president had been proclaimed at the grandstand. the image stuck ’til daylight, but issues of national interest could hardly shake me away from this budding drama. so i got up with a flourish to sms everyone at work that i’m not showing up today, to which they all replied a concise “k”. i love my officemates. they probably think i’m sick, but i didn’t forward an explanation and neither did they ask for one.

to give added impetus to my brewing wrath, i let both cats in and gazed emotionless while the orange one trimmed its claws on the furniture upholstery and the white one pilfered sardines from the breakfast table. if job the pug asserts himself today, i think i’d shove him with a little extra force than usual.

it rained at 8, so I was spared from the thankless task of watering plants. i took the bike out for a ride in the shower. it wasn’t that “insane thing you do after a breakup” kind of act. i do ride in the rain because that meant stray dogs are off the street and i’d have the subdivision all to myself. but today i seriously wondered if the denr truck would hit me at the curb. just wondered.

when i parked the bike back at the porch, i was glad to see that daisies have reared their buds from the foliage. it reminded me that i had to do my own laundry today. which i did.

gives me visions of hiding under the sheets today.



every morning
March 3, 2009, 4:17 am
Filed under: profundity, thinking, worldview

i wake up everyday to the blare of a ringtone. or an mp3 track. it was i who used to hold on passionately to a vinyl clock with wood grains and copper finishing, that must have been bought in the late 70’s or early 80’s, but that has sputtered its last peals in mid-college. after a few attempts at gadgets with mechanical faces and digital sounds, i finally succumbed to the cellular phone’s popular use as alarm clock. though i still keep that white cube of alternating lights as it told time and temperature. i’d use it if i could find it somewhere around here…

i fully wake up to a lonesome bed, chief having trod off to work at the crack of dawn. the light shifts colors, but i still feel like a few minutes under the sheets. sometimes i imagine he’s going to the mines or something that involves hard hats and flashlights, getting up so early like this, maybe i should pack a lunch of corned beef and java rice for him or cling wrap some microwave quick-melt cheese sandwiches. then i catch a glimpse of his laptop bag and oakley shades, and i realize my life coudn’t be that deeply enchanting.