how old is too old for the sparks that fly between two infatuated individuals? or how old is too old for infatuation? there must be a border where the juvenile concept of crush ends and the more advanced level of true admiration begins. or the more frequent lust; and it most likely is that.
aren’t sweet nothings and mushy lovelorn notes reserved for the adolescents of moistening eyes, trembling lips and clammy hands? there must come a time when sweet becomes spice, and moistening and trembling happen to some other body parts. but the hands always get clammy.
when is the age when love stories cease to unfold from friendster? when it becomes a sordid infantile shame for lovers’ quarrels to arise from grabbing other girls’ photographs? that may be a cause for argument on any level, but authentic relationships transcend the contemporary habits of cyber social networks. am i wrong?
at what age should a woman realize that the tingling sensation she gets upon laying eyes on her desired man is not anymore that teenage spark kilig, but a mounting sexual tension, growing like a tumor?
i know i have no right to lambast the pratice of this woman in pre-menopausal stage when this cyber romance is the one thing that motivates her to move on. so never mind the annoying lovesick messages, the frequent updates of their unfurling love story (others can pretend that they care one bit), the gtalk status proclaiming he is the only reason she moves on with strength and inspiration. all in teenage fashion. never mind.
for others of the same age bracket and in the same situation, i recommend they just get laid. and all of those strange sensations will go away. like waking up from a bizarre dream.
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i remember assembling such an inventory of meaningful things in my old, neglected blog
http://dasein-tessa.blogspot.com/2005/01/millennium-slambook.html
and here is the latest:
fetish
mascara, deep-cleansing facial wash
depression diversions
studying math and symbolic logic
flashes of pathos
assignment in bacolod
latest frustration
i wish i knew how to do back flips
i wish i can finish an intermediate level sudoku in 5 mins.
latest indulgence
laughing about the follies of hopelessly, helplessly in love females
fight songs
when smokey sings
starlight – supermen lovers
point of view – db boulevard
don’t stop ’til you get enough – michael jackson (in original color)
fight films
il postino
treasure planet(!)
fighting words
“could be…”
“then nadiscover sa mga babayeng arte…”
profane words
“gi-ahak lang”
“inatay”
debilitating weakness
guilt tripping
wedding march (should the need arise)
run on – moby
phobia
ghosts, dogs and caterpillars
most bizarre dream
i murdered people
middle term goal
patternmaking
MA in philo
long term goal
style shop
PhD in philo
i missed this in the first installment. how could i have?
Fighter (Christina Aguilera)
After all of the fights and the lies/Yes you wanted to harm me but that won’t work anymore/Uh, no more, oh no, it’s over/’Cause if it wasn’t for all of your torture/I wouldn’t know how to be this way now, and never back down/So I wanna say thank you/’Cause it makes me that much stronger/Makes me work a little bit harder/Makes me that much wiser/So thanks for making me a fighter
hyeah right.
the other sunday, lory and i had our numbers interpreted, our stars decoded, our chi translated and our futures told. this is lory’s third mystical assessment, but it was a first for me.
i am not a believer of such occultism, but, what the heck, what have i got to lose?
so here were the divinatory arts we submitted ourselves to:
Numerology. the system of beliefs in mystical relationships between numbers and physical objects and/or living things.
Feng Shui. the ancient chinese practice of placement and arrangement of space to achieve harmony with the environment.
Astrology. the most popular of these pseudosciences, astrology deals with systems and traditions relating celestial bodies to the understanding and interpretation of our personalities and affairs.
I-Ching Cards. this is a deck that represents the i-ching wisdom in card format. i-ching is an ancient chinese oracle based on 64 hexagrams.
(Talismanic Cards from Spain). there was one deck i wouldn’t know much about. all i remember being mentioned was that they were less specific than tarot and that they originated in spain…
Tarot. not many people know this, but the tarot deck is used historically for card games. in other countries though where these games are mostly unknown, the deck is used for divination.
Pendulum Divination. this must be my favorite for the day. as the name suggests, it involves the use of a pendulum to answer “yes/no” questions, to determine the gender of unborn children and to uncover years or months when we could expect certain things to occur.
now let’s see, what do i make of these? i wouldn’t live a life dependent upon predictions nor would i pattern my actions around luck-inducing objects or activities. i am simply fascinated by divinations and i am always in awe of the rich tradition surrounding these arts. we ought to know that many of the empirical sciences trace their origins from such pseudosciences, e.g., astronomy from astrology, mathematics from numerology, and chemistry from alchemy.
a lot of people may already consider occult quack, but remember: our ancestors took these very seriously. only at the dawn of enlightenment were these practices pushed into the realm of the irrational. which probably means that our great grandchildren may consider many of the things we hold true today as preposterous by then.
